Weightlifter Trying to figure out what to do next Closing my eyes and holding my breath I stare at walls that seems to be closing in I hope it passes quicker than it has been Broken hearts shattered dreams Plans that will never come to be Promises unkempt lies said All swirling in my head […]
Déjà Vu The feelings I am feeling I have felt them all before I know what is going to happen if things don’t change I don’t understand how I can keep leading myself down these familiar paths I should know better by now…right? Why do I put myself in these lose lose situations? I am coming to […]
Closet Curled up into the tightest ball my body can take Hugging my legs and willing them not to shake Hands trembling as tears roll down my face Counting to ten hoping it will end Closing my eyes so tight I’m afraid they will begin to bleed Not knowing where to put my body Feels […]
Waiting and not knowing is the hardest part Waiting for the ball to drop Waiting to see who will make the first move Waiting on an explanation that will never come Waiting to wait because I don’t know what else to do Waiting because the fear of facing this reality is to big for one […]
Morning coffee, music and deep conversations it’s a Thursday morning in the life of me Thoughts and emotions swirling around like the cream and sugar in my coffee The beats and lyrics sooth my soul and fills my heart with hope My mind is all mixed up with all the decisions that I have NO control […]
On the Nature of Daylight I close my eyes and I am taken away to a place of potential peace and life that causes me to believe there is something more Yet there is a sadness amongst it all because this place only exists in fantasy and verse I picture a girl looking out a […]
Fine Fine…I am fine I repeat this in my head so many times When all the while this bleeding heart is beating at half time Fine…I am fine While blood drips down my spine where the hole and your knife still resides Broken, battered and bruised But I am fine, really I am fine This […]
Touch of a Man I miss the touch of a man who cares I just want someone to look at me and kiss me for no reason Just to be held and loved For me to feel complete when I am with them I want to feel whole for the first time with another person […]
Circus Masks Looking outside onto passing cars wondering what it is all for? Everyone working to survive no one is really just living We all settle one way or the other for one thing or another, for what exactly and why? We all put a smile on our face and go on whether we are […]
6:00am Why am I awake at this hour Oh yes, It’s to see him, to be with him, to be one with him, but for what exactly, to fill an empty void that gets bigger every time I see him Yet, I go anyway but why? I ask myself that every time and I still […]
words from kariann... 